My blog about my divorce

Hi out there in blog land,
I read this morning about someone writing about being divorced and so I would like to share my situation with you.
I have been divorced since 1996. When I first got divorced I dated alot and then here and there and now I realized that there really isn't anyone out there for me. There was someone when I was learning Hebrew in ulpan, but, he left and so that was that. I never heard from him again. 
My situation is different than the lady that wrote her blog and someone put it on facebook.
I was not blessed with human children. I had a dog and she is gone now and I still have my cat. I was pregnant, but, lost the baby and was not lucky to become pregnant again. I did not understand why Hashem would do that to me. I wanted to be a Mom to a human child so bad and then it became clear. I will not write here why.
I cannot understand how it is to be divorced with children. I cannot only tell you how I feel. Being divorced is not the same as being single or married. Being divorced is that you are no longer single because you have been married and being divorced means you are no longer married. You are in the middle like a middle child. Being divorced used to have a stigma and people would stereotype divorced people. I was afraid to be alone, but, yet alone I was alone so it was better off getting divorced. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. Yes, there are times it is hard, but, I felt confined when I was married and now I am free and my cat is also free. She did not have a good time in the marriage. We are both better off. I never had a succa before and where we lived before it was impossible to have one and really didn't feel the holidays there. Since we have moved I have felt a part of something and this year we finally have a succa and love it so much. I feel like I can do what I want when I want and not someone telling me you have to do this and do that.
Being divorced is not fun, but, it is better than being in a bad, loveless marriage. 
This is how I feel. 
You can scroll down to see our succa and how I decorated it and also my cat and I in it.
So, thank you for all those that read this and did not judge me and accept me for who I am.